1st sched.. It's a wrap...

30th April'07 is a day I'll remember as the the day I wrapped up my first schedule, which also means that the work i've done in the past month has been saved and printed and I c'nt go back and change anything, which can be a scary thought.

It has been a 21 day sched spanning the entire month of april, starting with the muharat on the 27th of March'07.

How do I feel... exicted/dissapointed/satisfied/.. Its tough to put an exact feeling to the entire experience. When I look back now, I realise its been a process... a process of learning (how to cheat light, to keep my ears open to the man behind the camera),a process of self discovery (shit this is how I sit/walk , shit this is how my hair looks, shit what are my hands doing,or cool that smile works, cool I like that improvisation, cool i like that expression), a process of trying to find comfort and ease in the situation, a process called being in the moment/acting.

I ve begun to realise that two things which drive me to work besides the fact that I want to be on the big screen. Its the simple joy of giving that good shot, its a sweet feeling which is hard to describe, you know it when it happens between 'action' and 'cut'. Getting your director's approval is an added motivation. I find that peace, calmness everytime I deliver that 'good' shot very addictive. I have started to enjoy being in that state.

Besides that, the second most important thing which makes me go do this job, is the happiness/joy which people around you, on the set transmitt. Its this positive vibe of being on a set where everyone looks forward to seeing you every morning, be it your sound recordist or the light man or the spot boy. This feeling makes you want to go out and do your best..

Its been 21 days of good work and I hope it gets better from here. Looking forward to doing even better work :-)

Day 2,3,4,5,6,7,8... h-e-d (Apr 10-17)

The look...its taken forever.. Finally got some clarity on the costume late evening on the 8th, i.e. just a few hours before I left for Panchgani. Well, the costume actually deserves a seperate blog space just for the amount of time and patience it took to sort of put together what Shekhar would wear.

Well, we sort of have it now. Anil and shivani in consulation with the entire team of ADs, director, cinematographer and moi worked over time to okay the look. I think its the best we h've got after brainstorming and rejecting tons of ideas and colours. I like it!

First day - first schedule - first movie! Tensed, hell no! 'Anxious', I think would be an appropriate word! I guess it's normal to feel that way. M.T. (love the energy of the man) shared his experience and felt the same at the start of every film. I conclude it's a good feeling. First day in the jungle was probably the most tiring day of the sced. Shot in the jungles of mahabaleshwar for 3 days before we went to Wai and Satara.

Food on set has been great. Satisfied with the routine i've made for myself. shoot, some work out, some dinner, some tv,sleep. It's been consistent. Lessons learnt... need to be consistent all the time, every time, every take! Its tough but that's what great actors do effortlessly. Second, no effort! Third, again which M.T. shared, to be shamless and fearless..

The ride has just begun!